Something Has Changed

I don't know where the last fifteen weeks have gone but next week we start back at college and welcome new students and returning 2nd and 3rd years. The last year has flown by, even though at times it seemed to drag. I have just returned from a week away with my children camping in Norfolk and it certainly doesn't seem like a year since we were there last time. A lot of things have happened over the summer and God has been showing me a lot about my heart, my priorities, my motives and agenda and how none of them were really up to scratch. Situations with money, relationships, where I put my trust, hope, security and expectations... you know, all the "minor" things.

The challenge I guess was to see that Jesus is enough and, in fact, more than enough for everything. There have been times where I have worried myself so much about what may or may not happen that I lost weight, got ill, lost my vision and lost hope to a large degree. This bothered me somewhat because I knew that this is not what God has called me to, but it did reveal a heart condition and I was not happy about the state I was in. But now, and especially over the last week, something has dropped into place and I know changes have happened. I don't know what or how exactly but something has settled and I know that Jesus is enough.

Learning to live each day at a time, using the grace of today, the opportunities of today, the strength for today is important. God calls us to relationship first and foremost and He has promised that if we seek Him first and His Kingdom, then He would look after everything else. It is so important to find peace and contentment in Him, knowing His love and care for us, how much He is at work on our behalf, preparing the way for us to walk in. When we know this it gives us confidence and boldness to just be who He has made us to be and let Him deal with everything else.

I had a picture earlier in the year about walking away from dealing with the circumstances of life and just sitting at His feet so to speak, and listening to Him, doing what he says (nothing more and nothing less) and leaving the details of the outworking in His hands. I knew what he meant by this but now having gone through a few things that picture actually makes more sense to me. It is becoming a reality of daily life. He calls us to cast all our cares on Him because He takes care of us. A friend of mine signs off messages with "take care" but He says take care for nothing. I know what she means and it is right that we do take care in some respects, we have responsibilities and principles, but God calls us to be carefree and everything that comes our way we can just pass on to Him and not take on our own shoulders and try and work things out. It's always better to let Him do it for us. It's like if we are involved with legal issues, we can pass all the letters, communications and the like to a solicitor to deal with and not get bogged down with the details ourselves.

Like I said, I can't put my finger on what has changed in the last week or so, but something has and I am expecting things to happen around me, for me, in me and through me but I am not going to waste energy trying to pinpoint them or work it all out. I feel free, confident, bold, content and ready for what is next but in the mean time I need to be diligent, faithful and maintain a good attitude in all I say and do and watch those doors open up to me.

God is good. God is faithful and God has a plan which He is bringing to pass and when you least expect it, because your eyes are fixed on Him, He opens a way where there didn't even seem to be a way and says "this is the way, walk in it".