As I was walking through the city from the railway station to my home at 2.00 am this morning, I was very aware that I was not answerable to anyone. I have no-one I particularly need to tell where I am, what I am doing, how late I am going to be. Sometimes I really miss that special person, but at other times it is quite liberating. It means I can go and do what God asks of me (I was in London leading worship) and take my time doing it. There is no rush to get anywhere, I can relax and enjoy the ride and using the trains makes it easier to do that. Sometimes in those situations I am tempted to feel sorry for myself and wish that there was someone there waiting for me, and I believe that time will come, but then I just remember that wherever I am, whatever I am doing, however late it is, God is always with me! He is speaking to me, keeping me safe, assuring me, loving me. This brings comfort, confidence, boldness, peace and rest.
I believe it is good to be accountable to people and there were some yesterday who knew where I was and what I was doing and I am glad to tell them, but sometimes just knowing He is aware is enough.
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